The Sleeping Giant

It has been over seven months since my transplant and I am feeling pretty well most of the time. My WBC and RBC are below normal, but have stayed about the same for the last three weeks. Tomorrow, I will have my Cycle 4/Week 4 doctor’s appointment and infusion and then I will have the next week off, so that means two weeks between infusions. That should give my platelets a chance to rebound. There will be two more five week cycles of velcade and then it will be watch and wait.

I feel like I have a sleeping giant in my life and it could awaken at any time. I know that relapse is a high possibility with an autologous transplant, but I hope this giant is exhausted and needs a good long sleep. I am not ready to go through another transplant. Some days I feel incredibly sad and especially so the last few weeks.