Great Views


               The sun has been shining over the past several weeks and
I just wanted to post something a little brighter
than my previous post.
The weather is beautiful and the last few weekends
 have brought our family a chance to work in
our yard and garden.

Even Tabitha helped water the tomatoes.

We planted 300  tomato plants as well as onions, peppers, watermelons,
catalops, beets, peas, radishes,
 beans,raspberries and I’m sure there are more I have forgotten. 
My son-in-law and two sons plan on selling most of the
 produce at the local Farmer’s Market.

Kirby and Zoey enjoyed the outdoors too,
Here are a “few good men outstanding in their field.”
Trent always works better while listening to a few good tunes
 on his headphones.
See the blue beehive in the background? 
That’s the new home of 30,000 bees
 thanks to my son-in-law and
another one of his new hobbies.
Eggs anyone?
What a great life I have!
The views from
 the top
 of my mountain
 are amazing!

I am learning to live joyfully in the moment!

I CHOOSE TWO

One thousand and ninty five days ago today, we found out that I had cancer.  The doctor said it was Multiple Myeloma. ” Multiple what?”      “It’s a bone cancer,” he replied and the rest is history…….

Well it has been three years since that dark day.  I can’t remember the name of the doctor, where his office was, or what he looked like.  I never went back to him because he was not an oncologist.  I can’t remember what I wore, or ate, but some of the smallest details still stick in my brain.

 “Could you please write down the name of the cancer for me?”  I asked.  He tried to explain more to Joe. I remember none of the conversation. 

The memories of the day have stopped and started a million times over in my head through the last three years.

I think it is time now to decide exactly what to do with this day.
I need to decide if I should even remember it, honor it, or rip it off my calendar and tear it into a million tiny pieces never to be recognized again.

Fot the past three years, I have remembered this as a day I want to forget.
What do I do now?

 I guess I can choose two ways of looking at this day.
     ONE
 As a time to look back and focus on the disbelief, shock, and terror from the day
Shock and Terror!
Jace holding an Iguana in Puerto Rico.  Now that’s scarry!

 or

Two 
I can use this day to  help me rejoice and celebrate the Mountains I’ve climbed,
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Here’s Tabitha enjoying Autumn and Halloween
The things I have learned.  
The people who helped me get here.

My son Jace who is serving an LDS mission in Puerto Rico
 and the Gifts of Life that God has given me each of those one thousand and ninty five days.
Tabi and I enjoying a local Halloween celebration on Main Street.
We passed out 80lbs. of candy from our martial arts studio!
Today I Choose Two!

Still Climbing

My hopes for a steady recovery after finishing treatment in August were postponed for a while.  September started off great. Tabitha turned one.  We had a birthday party at the park.  Tabi was the entertainment as we watched her enjoy her very own birthday cake.

  My little grandaughter is now toddling(walking) around the house and keeping her teenage uncles busy keeping her out of trouble as she explores our home. 
What sunshine she brings to my life!

Mid September brought some challenges that had me sliding down this mountain I’ve been climbing.  I even had to put on my extra bracelet for the climb.

                I’ve explained about my “couragelet” before but can’t find the post.
                                               ( ker-age-lets, yes I made up that word!)
  I was given my first “couragelet by a Peruvian woman in a village where I was staying with my daughter.  We spent two weeks in Peru with a humanitarian project.   I wore  the bracelet when I climbed Macchu Pichu and have worn others like them from Peru since I began my mm mountain climb.


After several regular visits to my oncologist, the P.A. (physicians assistant) noticed some increased numbers having to do with liver function.  She suggested that I have an ultrasound.  The results came back positive for ……….”Non-alcoholic fatty liver disease.”  Probably caused by steriods…  definitely not alcohol since I have never drank any. (somehow that seems funny to me.  There has got to be a joke in there somewhere!)   After the initial panic, my internet research suggests that this is pretty common, rarely shows any symptoms, and can sometimes be cured through diet and exercise.  I have an appointment with a GI specialist in November to figure it all out.  Until then I’m putting it on the back plate.


Well my friends those steriods haven’t finished with me yet!  Around mid September, I started to notice my stomach aching after I ate and really hurt if I drank pop. It began to worsen until I was feeling nauseous all the time. I visited my oncologist several times.  I went to the hospital infusion room twice for IV fluids and zofran-an anti-nausea medicine.  It just did not seem to work!  I was having more nausea and vomiting more than when I was on chemo!  something was wrong and I was getting very discouraged! Finally the Dr. suggested I get a scope.


On Tuesday the 18th, I went in for an endoscopy procedure where they sedated me then put a scope down my esophagus and to the stomach looking for anything unusual.  Strangely I was worried if they found something and also worried if they didn’t.  At that point after being sick and tired of being sick and tired, I just wanted to get some meds to knock me out and keep me under as long as possible. 


Well before I could count backwards from ten to seven, it was over.  The doctor -who was an hour late starting! and trying to catch up, came in when I woke up with the news that I now have an ulcer at the bottom of my esophagus  probably due to…..steriods!  ugh!!  He quickly wrote me out a presciption for omeprazole and he was out the door. I have been on this med. for three years but quit in early September after Dr. Tricot told me I didn’t need it anymore.  Huh? What?!!.  Dexamethasone strikes again!


So now I had an answer but that still did not make me feel any better physically.  Luckily, on Friday I had an appointment with my own medical detective.  Dr. Jane is an oncologist who specializes in pain management and medication side effects.  She thoroughly went through all of my meds and symptoms.  Some I have and some I didn’t know I have.  She worked her magic, changed some meds,  and said that she could help me feel better.  I wanted to run over and hug her!!  It will take about 6weeks to heal this ulcer.  I should start feeling better much sooner. I’m also hoping be able to get rid of some of the pain and neuropathy too.   


So thats where I’ve been the last couple months and here’s what I’ve learned:
1. I need to go to a GI because I have NAFSand GERD from an ULCER which I got from DEX and RXs for treatment for MM.
2. Being sick without knowing why has been tough.  I’m trying to be tougher.
3. Being physically sick is hard on the soul.  I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching.
4. The most important things in life aren’t things.  They are my faith and my family and a good husband who brings me yogurt smoothies, black licorice, and back rubs whenever I need them!   Thank-You!

Irresistible!

“Little Miss Tabitha.”  

My sweet  grandaughter is almost eleven months old.  She brings so much joy into my life.
     Tabi is walking around furniture and starting to say a few words.  Last week I  moved one of her toys and she said, “no, no no!”  She gives her doll “loves,”  laughs at my dogs, and loves to read books.  I am so glad she lives nearby.
     Tabi is the center of attention.  When our family gathers, she sits on her blanket and plays with her toys and we circle around her and watch in amazement and awe.  I love being a grandmother!

And now for those living in my area…I am renting out my preschool building and supplies.  Please help me spread the word.  Ghttp://www.facebook.com/?ref=homeo here for more information.