Strange Attractor

Most of my friends don’t find me to be all that strange. They wouldn’t be my friends if they did now would they. Has anyone ever told you, “Like attracts like, You reap what you sow or Be careful what you wish for! or the ominous You are what you eat!” Given a 7 per 100,000 chance of contracting myeloma and a 1 in 6000 chance of meeting someone with myeloma why did my dearest of friends have to join this dreaded club? My head feel like this strange attractor (created by sandyckato) when I ponder the significance.

So why do I ponder, toss, turn and toil? That is the nature of still needing a bit of work to do before total enlightenment. In the mean time I am honored to finally be able to justify all this obsessive compulsive myeloma info gathering I’ve done over the last 4 years. Of course he is not particularly interested in it, but that just means I don’t have long boring conversations with him. I secretly record every number, ask leading questions and obsess about their significance. (Insanely persisting in the same behavior over and over again expecting a different result every time.)  It is hard to believe that it has been 4 years. I’m in a different shape compared to 4 years ago, but then that is in large part because I’m inherently lazy. My left forearm is still not attached to my left shoulder so that means I don’t do shit and I have become round.  A new shape.

I smile tons and life is grand. Happy Holidays!