The dream

My darling MikeLast night I had that dream. The dream that I assume everyone grieving has. The dream where you weren’t really dead. You arrived on the doorstep, furious that I hadn’t realised you were still alive. Angry that I had started to cancel pay…

Grief

Anyone who has lost someone they loved will know what I am going through. The house seems so quiet without his voice and at the same time so full of him and his things that wherever I turn I am jolted by the grief of seeing his shoes, his coffee cup, h…

The Transplant

(A little drum workout to accompany this post)It’s now been a year since I was diagnosed with B-cell acute lymphoblastic leukemia.  It’s been a very long year that included 12 rounds of heavy chemo, pneumonia, a cardiac arrest, a life-threatening …

Goodbye

Mike passed away peacefully holding my hand last night. My emotions are so raw and overwhelming that I wonder how I will survive the pain. I know many have gone before me and survived. I know that many more will follow. In this moment though, it is onl…