6.19.19
Hello to no new dramatic news, although everything is dramatic around here. Sad, tragic, heartbreaking, unbelievable, yet sweet moments of ok…
So much going on psychologically, so much to process, so much to compartmentalize… I just want to SCREAM………… How Did This Happen To My, Our Lives…
But within IT all, I am so very grateful for my treatment success, as I come up on my 9 year Stem Cell Transplant Anniversary in July! Wow! No one would have ever guessed I’d still be here, and as ok as I am… well I’m really not “ok”, but I am ok… To look at my chemo treatment plan, and my Pet Scan results, you’d think I’d hardly be functional. Thank you to my body for hangin in there… Crazy how I’m so SICK, yet so “well” on other levels.
Took my hubby to the Dr today, then out to a spontaneous lunch, since I have his wonderful caregiver Chris to help with everything. He is such a gift in our lives! He is saving my life in so many ways…. Caring for an ill adult is unbelievably challenging…. and so very tragic… Cannot believe what I am still able to do, and I how I do what I do each day… Yes, “fake it till you make it” is my life right now… ugh, sorry, my thoughts are all over the place, and I could go super deep, but I won’t. I’m hangin on by a tread in so many ways, yet so grateful for so much… so grateful for so much!!
Thank you for checking in, reading and caring as you do…
The drama will only become more dramatic each post…
