Thanks to those who commented on my previous post.
I can see that the world is full of great people like Bill who has raised $35 000 and counting. People who are so positive it makes my brain ache. I do try to be up beat, but my upbringing drags me back, hell Mike’s upbringing drags me back. “I wasn’t middle class, we had a car but it wasn’t new” as opposed to my didn’t have a dad didn’t have a bike, only had a neighbour’s son’s / my small great-uncle’s cast offs. I was a very strong teenager, I wore a suit going out aged 18, luckily it was when it was fashionable to do so.
The feeling of inadequacy has increased though since I gave up my paid job to help Mike achieve his goals. I have nothing now. I’d like to find a way out of my corner but I’m trapped by my anxiety and his ideas of how to go forward.