The worse thing about our current situation is the loneliness. No one visits, no one calls, we don’t even get emails or text messages. It feels like no one cares, Mike believes they do but just can’t cope with the situation and so block it, and us, out of their everyday lives. 

Sometimes the current situation of being alone with Mike leaves me terrified of the future when I don’t even have him for company. The reality of course is that I will be free to go out and meet new people, how and where is yet to be decided, there will be plenty of time . 

My days are spent looking after Mike and pottering in the garden. The very changeable British weather makes it difficult as a sudden cold spell after an unseasonably warm spell has the poor plants confused and shocked. It also has Mike struggling for breath as the much needed heating in the house dries the air and the heat outside makes him struggle too, the catch 22 situations of life.