“Do you like Myeloma..Daddy?” was the question that came from my four almost five year old son. I was totally caught off guard. One, because he pronounced Myeloma better than most adults, and two, the fact he even knew the word.
His question still has me in a tailspin. You would think the immediate response would be “NOOOOOOO!”…but that was not what came to mind. I am still caught up in this question days later and my thoughts are a little scattered….I just don’t know exactly how I feel about Myeloma. Obviously I wish it would depart from this earth as early as yesterday, but I don’t feel an angery/firey get out of my life now -type response.
Like any bumps in my life I tend to see them as redirection onto a better path and an opportunity to know myself better. I can say that Myeloma has definitely provided both redirection and many opportunities for me to better understand myself and those around me. Don’t get me wrong, I am not “thankful” for the disease nor do I view it as a gift, but I don’t hate it nor do I feel like I am in a “battle” against it. Weird…I know.
To set the record straight…Ocean was referring to Myeloma buddies…NOT the disease. I wish he would have told me that up front before my mind went down this rabbit trail to understand how I feel about my Myeloma. As for Myeloma Buddies….I think they are LEGIT!
Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!
-Phil
