Andre’s Obituary Notice

My brother-in-law works for the weekly paper where we had Andre’s obituary notice published. It was also mentioned in a roadracing magazine. We are planning a secular memorial service (celebration of his life seems to be the better term) in Dallas, T…

4:21 PM

Andre died today in my arms. He was handsome until his very last breath. I’ve thanked him for the 9 wonderful years we’ve spent and for making me happy. I love him so much and I’m going to miss him dearly.

ICU Day 28

28 days. Andre has been on the ventilator and in the ICU for 28 days. Today is probably the lowest I’ve felt since the initial diagnosis, and my heart is close to breaking. I know I’ll catch my bearing again to take better care of Andre and my other r…

ICU Day 24

Roobeedoo, Spiritwoman, and Andre’s weekend doc all suggested that playing music might help Andre relax. My initial notion was that silence is best in not agitating him. It seems I’m wrong. I started with classical music to relax Andre but he seems t…

ICU Day 22

I’m back in Seattle after being in Vancouver since Wednesday afternoon. I’ve kept up on Andre’s progress by calling the nurses at least three times a day, but the day nurse today was quite thoughtful. She called me an hour before the end of her shift…

ICU Day 20 – AM

Andre was completely sedated when I came this morning. I had another “incident” with a physician today, this time with the new attending oncology doc. It seems I’m losing my patience so I need to just calm down just like what I tell Andre.Completely …

ICU Day 18 and 19

Monday and Tuesday are very similar days to a degree.They started weaning Andre off the sedatives and he responded with differing degrees of agitation. The biggest battle is always when he’s waking up from sedation and sleep in the mornings. He would…

While you were sleeping…

I want to update Andre on “newsworthy” events he missed while he was recovering from his surgery on June 18.Here is my list so far:our 9th year Anniversary (July 3rd)our friends’ (Pam & Suzie) move to the Bay AreaUS Independence Day (July 4th)Canad…

ICU Day 16 and 17

There isn’t much to report on Andre from yesterday, July 4th. His medical team had started tapering off his sedation. They did a CT scan of his chest to look at the infection in his lungs. And they started him on what they call “pressure support” ve…

ICU Day 15 (The Anniversary Issue)

Exactly 1 year ago, Andre and I celebrated our 8th year anniversary by getting married in Vancouver, Canada.Today, we’re celebrating it quietly in his hospital room–no fanfare, just whispers of encouragement and love, and tender caresses to remind us …