Thank you Paige.
I hope I don't break my neck too!
And I do not mind going through it. This life is mine to live. Mostly, I find I am suffering the pain much more from failing to give myself fully to what I am able to give to my life.
I am sorry that this is getting too blah blah. Here is a wuote by Viktor Frankl that might say it better:
"It did not really matter what we expected from life, but rather what life expected from us. We needed to stop asking about the meaning of life, and instead to think of ourselves as those who were being questioned by life—daily and hourly. Our answer must consist, not in talk and meditation, but in right action and in right conduct."