March week three.

This afternoon’s sky just about summed up my mood. As hard as I tried, I just couldn’t find the daily small moment of joy that has kept me going. A flower, a bird, a funny moment, all escaped me. Like all things this mood will pass. Like the moments of…

March week two.

So a quick update on what has happened over the last week, apart from the arrival of oxygen. We had a visit from a nurse from the local hospice who in turn referred us to the district nurse. The district nurse came on Saturday and had a long chat with …

New arrivals.

Yesterday we had a delivery, oxygen for Mike.This box contains four cylinders which can be carried around in a very fetching black bag. We also have a rather large machine upstairs that compresses the oxygen out of thin air (literally) and then pumps i…

March week one.

Nothing much has changed. The slow decline continues.I find that I am suddenly hit by moments of intense grief, often unexpectedly or at the oddest moments. The other day it was while making the morning coffee, the cafetiere is built for two and the re…

February update week 4

As you will all have realised I didn’t do a week three update. There was nothing new to say. There still isn’t anything to say this week other than Mike says he is getting more and more tired as time goes by. All seems well each morning as he sits…

February week two update.

Mike is pretty much the same, but I went down with a bad cold on Wednesday, which doesn’t help when you are trying to take care of someone else almost 24/7. I am feeling slightly better today, the nose is still bunged up and I have a cough, but my ener…

February week one update.

I thought I would update the blog so everyone knows what’s going on. Mike was only in hospital Monday night. They drained his chest on the Tuesday after which he decided he wanted to be at home. The doctors tried to argue with him, but the reality, whe…

Tricky times

The last few days have been a bit tricky. Mike ended his birthday by calling an ambulance as he couldn’t breathe. He had already discovered that his HB had been 8.5 (85) the day before and he reasoned that was the cause of his problems. As it was almos…

Happy birthday to you…..

Tomorrow is Mike’s birthday. His health will stop him celebrating as he once would have, but I will definitely be celebrating the day that my gorgeous husband was born. I can have a drink for us both!Happy birthday darling. xxxMike aged 11

Maudlin moments

I am having a bad day. Even before Mike starting discussing his funeral plans I was emotional and tearful. I have been spending too much time looking at old photographs of Mike, photos taken just after we met, photos of holidays together, photos of our…