Goodbye

Well dear readers it is time to say goodbye. As the title says, this was a blog about OUR journey with myeloma, there’s no longer an US. This space was Mike’s as much as mine, although he didn’t actually post in the later years. Mike’s journey with mye…

I miss you.

I miss you darling. I miss your voice, your laughter, your smile, your smell. I miss seeing your face when I wake up every morning, I miss you saying you love me when I go to sleep at night. I cling to the words you left for me on my birthday, the…

Do it.

Do it, do it now! Write down the things you’re loved ones say to you. Get them to write things down, not an impersonal email, but a proper handwritten letter. Capture their image, their voice, their essence on whatever means you can. Keep it safe for t…

After Life.

It is a whole month since Mike passed away, nine days since his funeral. The pain of his loss seems sharper than ever. The adrenaline of the first few weeks has dried up and paralysis has set in. Every plant in the garden, every tin in the the pantry,…

Tribute from a far.

We knew this time would come but were hoping for a miracle so that Mike would still be with us, but although he fought bravely it wasn’t to be. He was also praying for that miracle even though things looked pretty bleak, such was his zest for life. Mik…

A friend’s tribute

Mike and I were friends from before I can even remember.  Both of us called Mike.  I’m told we were friends from the age of three.  We grew up a few houses from each other in Great Barr.  We always looked odd together because he was…

My tribute to my soulmate.

My darling MickyToday we are here to say goodbye and at the same time celebrate your life. We may have met a bit later than most, but from the second we started talking to each other, I knew that we would be friends for life, and we were. I never expec…

More anxiety.

The anxiety comes in waves like the grief, the one fueling the other. What would be a minor event, a mere tickle of annoyance to a “normal” person has me hiding under the covers, fearful that I am going to come to harm. As the funeral approaches these …

Bloomin blogger.

It seems that for some reason, some people haven’t been able to leave comments on the blog. No idea why as the settings allow even anonymous users to comment. Sorry to all those who have tried and been blocked by Google. 

Side effects.

For me the grief has side effects. The biggest problem for me right now is anxiety. During the first week after Mike’s death I phoned everyone, I felt in control and confident. The second week became more difficult as time went on and now as I enter th…