What are the ones in my life specifically?  There is the obvious one – Multiple Myeloma.  But cancer is Nothing, when compared to the soul-sucking, life-zapping, never-ending bottomless pit of living with a monster that has nothing but blackness inside and they are determined to destroy all that you are, and subsequently your children by proxy, just… Read More Monster

Bad Mom… NOT

  “The first lesson to be learned in the school of life is to understand one’s own personality or individuality, so as to estimate it at its true value, and to be able to use it for good and to avoid using it for evil. A man should know all that can be known of… Read More Bad Mom… NOT


Why has it taken so long for me to listen to my daughters iTunes playlist all the way through?  As much as I used music as an escape in my teens and all throughout my adulthood (should have done it sooner)…   So much can be learned about a person from the music they listen to,… Read More Gasoline

Who is full of it?

Me… I am so full of it.  I am NOT CRUSHING IT right now.  I wish the tear spells would stop.  I saw my primary care doctor, apparently I am no longer able to discuss the situation without it causing a visible and physical symptom of a shell-shocked human being.   It is embarrassing, that is… Read More Who is full of it?

Pain is pesky

I saw her during her visiting hour last night.  It was hard for the first 10 minutes, because I filled the time with awkward/nerdy chatter about how things were  at home.  I knew I looked really rough because I had been overwhelmed and overstressed for a couple of days.    She seemed genuinely concerned at… Read More Pain is pesky

And the Hits Keep Coming

I have attempted to summarize the last few months since my last post.  I think my nervous system is shot… because a few days ago, I was much more upbeat…  I am trying to think of the psychological phenomenon that happens when a person is presented with just TOO MUCH of the ‘FEELS’ in a short period of time…… Read More And the Hits Keep Coming

New Day

Wow, what a busy couple of months we have had!  I finally met Dr. Borrello and his team.  What a comforting experience it was; the hospital is HUGE, it could be a city unto itself.  I would have succumbed to the anxiety brought on by my overwhelmed nervous system, had Gina not been with me… Read More New Day