Perhaps I should explain myself. I am angry almost constantly. In the past almost 5 yrs since my diagnosis I have grown increasingly bitter and just plain pissed off. From the early “why me?”
to the later rationlizations for cancer and its seeming desire to pick on my family, I have grown oh so bitter. This bitterness has not abated but grown full into a daily and in fact nightly drubbing of my conscious and unconscious mind. During the day I am pissed and at night in my dreams I am thinking about people both professionally and personal who have wronged me!
In truth it is haunting me endlessly. I feel like a murder of crows are flying around me, lighting on me and pecking me to death!
Has anyone else felt or feels that way?