Child’s Play.

I have never liked horror movies. In my younger years I was pressurised into watching a few by my peers and boyfriend. Carrie, The Omen, Rosemary’s Baby, The Fog to name just a few. They would leave me with nightmares for weeks. I know the social references that come from many of the  movies, but I haven’t seen the films and I don’t want to. I have never watched a horror movie with Mike, I do know that his point of view is very different to mine, to him they are entertaining almost comical as they “aren’t real”. Our difference of opinion has been the cause of several heated “discussions” as he doesn’t understand why I would watch fantasy / science-fiction but not horror “it’s all make believe and not real.” He misses the point, I wouldn’t mind if Star Trek or Star Wars were real, I certainly don’t want Chucky chasing me!

Being a carer is sometime like being locked in a room with a horror movie. All I can do is sit and watch as Mike suffers. I can’t stop him having unpleasant side effects to his medications or even make it better. How can I stop him suffering haematuria? What more can I do to relieve the terrible itching that has him drawing blood? How do I stop myself from feeling helpless? 

Some days I just wish I could have a different film to watch.