I had mine yesterday…

Apparently according to Daybreak, today is the most miserable day of the year! Well I had mine yesterday, so I got it over with a day early. Thanks to some powerful tablets I also managed a much better sleep last night.

So today I shall start remembering all I have to be grateful for and of course YOU are the top of the list. Knowing I have a large army coming together makes this so much easier.

So to start my battle plan going, every morning I will list just one thing to be grateful for (of course I have lots more than just one thing!), and one thing to look forward to do each day. It would be good if you could do the same (if you don’t already) this will help to keep us all emotionally strong. You are more than welcome to share yours through this blog or Facebook. Sometimes writing them down helps.

Here are my two for today

1) Today I am grateful for You all

2) Today I look forward to working with my husband on a leaflet for anxiety.

At the start of writing this blog almost a year ago, I did promise to share the truth about my myeloma health journey. This blog is read by many people, some of who also have this horrible cancer. I have found it extremely useful to learn from other myeloma sufferers blogs so I hope this blog can be of some help to them too. Also it would be foolish to shy away from reality, there is no doubt that the next few months are going to be tough. I have been told categorically that my record of not being physically sick for the last, at least 25 years, WILL be coming to an end. That shouldn’t happen until I am in hospital after the transplant but it is not something I am looking forward to. Last year, due to an accidental overdose, of believe it or not, my anti sickness tablets, I came very close to being forced to drink charcoal, to make myself sick. Luckily I got away with just being put on a drip for a couple of hours. I shall be especially cautious this time round and of course take the strongest of anti sickness medication I can get my hands on, but apparently it will still happen at some point. This should probably be the least of my worries! It is fair to say the whole idea of subjecting my body to another round of powerful toxins fills me with dread and I feel so sad and disappointed that my remission was cut so short. I am also very anxious about the transplant so despite my upbeat persona I am not as brave as you might imagine. I do however have faith in the power of the mind and know full well the important role a positive attitude can make. So a positive attitude is essential for my warriors.

So get out there find the joy in the day as there are plenty of things we can all be thankful for.

Love Deborah.

Ps Thank you Uncle Jeremey for the kick up the A*** and Uncle Jack for the smoked salmon which I am looking forward to for lunch. Xxx

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